HAPPINESS, CHOCOLATE (TOO MUCH), MOUNTAIN BIKE...SUMMMERTIME

Ok...
Woke up this morning with the same thought as I crashed out with...."I need to loose some weight"
In all honesty, I've been thinking about it alot lately...although I've never actually stopped by the roadside of introspection and pondered to the point of actually doing something about it. Change (wanting too anyway) has got to be the keyword now, and not just wishing.
I like my food tooooo much and although I have more or less cut out smoking...(I have a secret cigarette some nights when I'm watching the box) theres a great deal of other things I will have to start concentrating on. I bought rather a neat mountain bike that cost (no comment).£*** early this year and since I last used it its been gathering cobwebs and the odd bit of rust ever since. So todays mission (not) impossible is to WALK to ones mothers and go get me my bike.
Got a million and one mtv vids and tracks on PDA file so I can listen and start peddling...LOL and start the health ball rolling.
Right now I am sitting infront of the keyboard having been jamming some melody I heard on internet radio last last. Look out side....WOWZERS... THE sky is blue this morning and bright sun light is hitting every corner of my room. It can only mean one thing..........aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh
ITS SUMMER TIME....YIPPEEEEEE.
:-)

cu

DAY 7

DAY 7 (WEEK ONE)

I never thought that quiting smoking and actually being consciously SERIOUS about giving up for good, would be so damn hard.

Ok so its only been one week. But I still crave a cigarette like you wouldnt believe. Not all the time I grant you, but when the boredom bug kicks in that's when it gets difficult to switch off.

I have given up smoking so I can restart my like and loose the cought, go back to kick boxing (and stay there this time...LOL), carry my daughter who loves daddy to chauffer her around like a human taxi, start running, go fo long cycle rides on the expensive mountain bike thats been in limbo for a long time now.

Most importantly...I want to live as long as possible so I can meet my grandchildren should my daughter grow up and have kids of her own.

At the moment, the mornings are noticably easier, I do however get the odd headache first thing before I have the first nescafe goldblend of the day, but the cough has gone and I can breath freely without any wheezing that most get after a while from smoking.

I know I wont go back to it, but its just finding something to occupy the moments of bordom when that craving kicks in like a long lost friend knocking on the door.

I digress.

bye bye

DAY 6

DAY 6

Left headphones on last night as I woke up from a really vivid dream. Space ships in the shape of blue crystalline stars with tiny revolving windows came down in multitudes and picked up everyone living in the street I lived in in the dream and took us all on a journey.

We were all ported to a destination of a simple cinema in some far off small town. We all sat unable to move watching in shock as the film began to roll. On the screen came up a title which I remember was far too tiny to read. When the film started, several silver non human like robots were seen zooming around, some flying, some walking and some upside down just staring at the camera. What happened next was weird. As one by one each row of us were released from whatever force was holding us from moving, a large group of terrorist like robots dressed strangely in USA military special forces garb came running down the ails.

We were forced to defend ourselves as they fired a lazier like weapon at us. No one was hurt by it but we attacked them with serious force and deemed them motionless and unable to compute like a bunch of spent batteries.

Soon after that, the main exit doors opened up at the front of the cinema and we all ran out to the what we thought was the bright light of the sunshine. As soon as the last few of us steps out, the doors slammed shut and the light was instantly switched off to reveal another space craft...Doors wide open...Two large human beings in appearance beckoning us all to enter the ship.

We saw on walking into the ship as we passed the two that they had no faces, just a tiny plastic mesh that lit up when they spoke. One kept calling the other mr.president, which seemed odd to us. Several of our group were growing increasingly angry at what was happening and wanted to go back home.

shortly after this we all found ourselves materialized in a car park somewhere in America. But unlike the America of reality, this america was full of arabian dressed people, all covered up from head to toe in black material. No one was distinguishable from the other. As several of us watched this bizzare vision from the overhang of the carpark wall, we heard a rush of air growing louder and louder accompanied by a flash of fire that went up and up into the air. The space craft had left us here and was gone as quick as it had first turned up in out street.

We waited chatting about, and I remember one lady who came over to me and sharing a pack of Marks and Spencer prawn cocktail sandwhitches with brown bread and asked me where I wished I was right now.

I looked at her and was captivated by her calmness and truthful glint eminating from her deep blue eyes. I answered home. She asked me if I was sure. So I said I wasnt sure.

At that moment another space craft appeared out of nowhere and planted inself literally inches away from the two of us.

The rest is lost as I woke up/

Anyway.....its day six of my non smoking new life. Its hard as hell even with patches to help but I am pretty confident that I will be able to move to the next stage in a week or two. Diet and nutrition complete change BIG TIME CHANGE and the kickboxing again where I left off, together with mountain biking once again. Or at least an early morning and early evening lost distance ride to both build up my out of sync body and build my fitness level again.

I digress' although the thought for the day is....I hope that smoking appearing in films and television programs will soon be a thing of the past. The reason being that watching a dvd yesterday brought strong feeling back of wanting a cigarette just from seeing a ficticious charactor smoking on screen

I digress.

cu

DAY 5

Day five

Well, its now the start of day five. I woke up for the first time today not even feeling remotely like I need a cigarette which is a relief. Yesterday was a whole different ball games. I took my daughter for a day out and we both had a great time.

I cant remember a moment when she wasn't smiling or haoiily pointing things out like children do. It was only on the crazy golf course at a local seaside resort that I began to want a cigarette.

Luckily I managed to scoff down some sweets that we BOTH finished off....LOL and the craving had gone.

Night times seem to be the worst time of all and that I guess is down to boredom and getting accustomed to no longer having a little stick of tobacco rolled up in a piece of paper that I now have to deal with at times.

This is the first time I have done this without a sense of realizing that I might go back to smoking.

Health is the highest on the list to why this is now a committed decision for me to see it through.

I realize that there IS no turning back now and that is that.

I'm getting my mountain bike from out of storage later today. I intend to start phase two of my "5 point Personal health project". The next stage is diet, exercise and mentail wellbeing.

Oh well, I'm now being summoned by ones beautiful and wonderful daughter whose just awoken up so its off from the laptop and in to the kitchen for breakfast time.

Wish me luck. (don't actually need it as I have willpower enough to reach where I need to get too)

cue