I wanted to write this blog yesterday, but because the day was to be honest so excellent, I thought I would wait till today and gather my thoughts properly.
Yesterday, without wishing to sound cryptic, I had my eyes opened (metaphorically speaking) for the first time in a long while.
To cut a long story short....."THANK YOU" Ali, Steph, J, Gary, Jason, Little Nan and my thoughts are with Sophie and my new friend who we met yesterday. My thoughts are truly with you and your family. I hope all goes well today.
CU all on Thursday (the Dell will be shivering in it's boots when it sees me walk in the door....he he he he) everyone and thanks for an excellent day.
By the way Jason thanks for introducing me to Metalica in 5.1...I have to say they rock!!!!
Have just been listening to some of their live work via YouTube that is available to listen to.
Try before you buy and all that. I want to get a hold of a UK concert at some point. Be neat o to listen to through my 5.1 upgrade (once I iron out the crackling....boo hoo)
By the way.....S has not stopped talking about the day. I think her new favorite word is "Steph" :-)
Friday, March 30, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
YouTube
Never thought I would actually do it what with everything else going on in the world to get side tracked with. But I did it. I sat down, set the cam up and recorded as best I could, me playing the keyboard. Ok so its a bit naff as first times go, but at least I did it.
http://www.youtube.com/LeYarDi
Friday, March 23, 2007
Life
My spirit began to shake and stayed shivering for quite some time....
Perhaps like a feather in the wind...Perhaps not
My soul was feeling lost in a plastic world for some time. A plastic world I'm told most don't even bother to acknowledge or even realize they exist in...or perhaps if the truth were known 'Don't want to think about'
Reminiscent of a Matrix trilogy but without the spider robots? LOL
I guess its certainly not a prerequisite to exist in the plastic world that's for sure. No one person is forced to. NO! We can all live as we want. But there ARE rules. But no one person ever said to us to become plastic..........."we just do!"
The plastic life is a life that is nothing more than a man made matrix. A world full of daily routines which each of us follow like the three wise men following the star of David. Except...except unlike them we are on no real religious mission, and we are on no mercy dash to glance upon a tiny child in a manger. No, we are just here and thats all there is to it. We get up, get washed and dressed, leave for work, get to work and work the day out. Drive or walk home, sit down to eat, switch on the tv...watch a soap, listen to music (listening to music is better) get changed, go to bed...and become a slave to the metaphorical alarm clock that is life 'all over again'
I am writing this as a note to myself for future reference for when my mind wanders to the clouds in a dreamlike way and ponders who God actually is and what everyone (not just me) is destined to do.
You see, I have reached the age of thought change, when I guess from what others have said allow deeper thoughts to become clearer. Allowing us to become more individual, to be more in tune with our inner selves.
The thoughts I have are not awful or magical or anything really crazy. No, my thoughts these days are simple towards one area.... You know what I mean, "are our lives predestined to the point that we have no direct control over what each day will bring, is it just a matter of God giving us a few various daily choices in the hope we won't feel we are playing a reality game and are forced to do what we do"
I believe that when we are born there are only psychological shackles that bind us to a specific predestined future or route through life. The only thing I do whole heartedly believe where birth and life connect is that we are only predsstined through the preprogramming of the handed down genes that our given to us via our parents and their parents. Indeed it IS like a tree. SO when we say 'family tree' it is more real than a metaphor or set of words.
Genetically when we look around we are in deed alike. On the surface anyway. But deeper....much deeper we certainly aren't.
As a person I know that I would help even an enemy if they were in trouble. I know I believe in God, I know I am an extremely good parent....I know I love life...I know and feel the faith in my soul that tells me that with the strength and focus I can do anything I want and go anywhere I want. I know I have a destiny mapped out at least it feels that way. I want to become a writer and work to help other learn by my writings. I want to do good on this earth and be a good human being. I want to raise my child to be as good as she can in what she chooses to do. I want to raise her with the same understanding and tolerance that I was taught... I want her to grow up and be as good a person as I feel I am.
I have no idea where all this has come from..but it's just a blog that no one really reads and it's just my thoughts.
Make of it what you will.
Perhaps like a feather in the wind...Perhaps not
My soul was feeling lost in a plastic world for some time. A plastic world I'm told most don't even bother to acknowledge or even realize they exist in...or perhaps if the truth were known 'Don't want to think about'
Reminiscent of a Matrix trilogy but without the spider robots? LOL
I guess its certainly not a prerequisite to exist in the plastic world that's for sure. No one person is forced to. NO! We can all live as we want. But there ARE rules. But no one person ever said to us to become plastic..........."we just do!"
The plastic life is a life that is nothing more than a man made matrix. A world full of daily routines which each of us follow like the three wise men following the star of David. Except...except unlike them we are on no real religious mission, and we are on no mercy dash to glance upon a tiny child in a manger. No, we are just here and thats all there is to it. We get up, get washed and dressed, leave for work, get to work and work the day out. Drive or walk home, sit down to eat, switch on the tv...watch a soap, listen to music (listening to music is better) get changed, go to bed...and become a slave to the metaphorical alarm clock that is life 'all over again'
I am writing this as a note to myself for future reference for when my mind wanders to the clouds in a dreamlike way and ponders who God actually is and what everyone (not just me) is destined to do.
You see, I have reached the age of thought change, when I guess from what others have said allow deeper thoughts to become clearer. Allowing us to become more individual, to be more in tune with our inner selves.
The thoughts I have are not awful or magical or anything really crazy. No, my thoughts these days are simple towards one area.... You know what I mean, "are our lives predestined to the point that we have no direct control over what each day will bring, is it just a matter of God giving us a few various daily choices in the hope we won't feel we are playing a reality game and are forced to do what we do"
I believe that when we are born there are only psychological shackles that bind us to a specific predestined future or route through life. The only thing I do whole heartedly believe where birth and life connect is that we are only predsstined through the preprogramming of the handed down genes that our given to us via our parents and their parents. Indeed it IS like a tree. SO when we say 'family tree' it is more real than a metaphor or set of words.
Genetically when we look around we are in deed alike. On the surface anyway. But deeper....much deeper we certainly aren't.
As a person I know that I would help even an enemy if they were in trouble. I know I believe in God, I know I am an extremely good parent....I know I love life...I know and feel the faith in my soul that tells me that with the strength and focus I can do anything I want and go anywhere I want. I know I have a destiny mapped out at least it feels that way. I want to become a writer and work to help other learn by my writings. I want to do good on this earth and be a good human being. I want to raise my child to be as good as she can in what she chooses to do. I want to raise her with the same understanding and tolerance that I was taught... I want her to grow up and be as good a person as I feel I am.
I have no idea where all this has come from..but it's just a blog that no one really reads and it's just my thoughts.
Make of it what you will.
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Update
I wont be using the blogging interface to Firefox (performancing) till a newer update comes out. It seriously has flaws. Image uploading doesn't work properly. Oh well....back to Dashboard.
Some days are better than others
I guess some days really 'are' better than others. I caught the wrong bus this morning as I ended up standing at the front due to it being a little over crowded. Thank goodness for mobile phone technology, as I was able to watch some youtube clips I'd converted yesterday and dumpted for a rainy day when I was bored. Anyway I watched them en route which made it a little better.
Right now I am listening to 'Michele Branch - Leap of Faith' on web radio. Nice song when you're feeling a little bit down.
Got home this afternoon and cleaned up the garden before picking my little one up from pre school. Found her favorite hat this morning still hanging on her coat peg. Now she says she wants to keep mine. Guess I'm stuck with hers. Basically I picked up a New York baseball hat (blue with white lettering) and Sophie my daughter insisted she wanted one too. So she picked a completely different one. You get the point.
Been looking high and low for that hat for ages. nice to find it whatever the outcome.
Right now I am writing this blog with one of the many add ons that the new version of Firefox web browser can use. It's called 'PERFORMANCING' I' happened to find it by accident earlier. Its version 1.3.2 I think. It works via a point and click button at the bottom of the browser. When you want to blog you click it and hey presto you get a complete (dare I say better) blogging interface. Bit tricky uploading images but I found that copying the file from file explorer and pasting it allowed resizing. So that turned out ok.
Ok, better go and see to dinner I guess.
By for now.
powered by performancing firefox
Monday, March 19, 2007
Sumatra Earthquake
Sumatra Earthquake photos after the devastation caused.
A friend sent them to me from where she is based in Singapore.
It's hard to believe that something like this can happen via the hand of nature.
A friend sent them to me from where she is based in Singapore.
It's hard to believe that something like this can happen via the hand of nature.
Friday, March 09, 2007
If I was a cat
Freddie
She'll just sit there. When I'm trying to work, up she'll jump and attack the keyboard or scratch at the screen, if you've got a cat then you'll know what I mean.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
TrojanRnotUS
I guess I'm one of the lucky ones, you see for some reason unknown to me, I'd picked up a virus the other day. Well, it was actually a Trojan with little way of removal but to reformat. Luckily god built me with a few good brain cells and although Id lost some of my bits and bobs I was able t use a backup drive which is completely separate from the main PC. So I was able to save all my work but was GUTTED (who wouldn't be?)to have to do a fresh reinstall. Anyway, its good to have vista running speedily along once again. Oh, and I've installed even more backup software now onto the 350gb drive. My C drive is much like everyone else's in that in its backed up version it takes up around 2.5 to 4gb compressed.
Its safe to say I'm safely protected now....I hope.AVG anti virus which I swapped over to last year having been a long time user of Panda Anti virus (until I got no replies back from their customer help dept OR various other comms over a major problem I was having)
AVG is a good anti virus software as I didn't want to have to use one that had a build in firewall, preferring to use another source for this.
Anyway....I just hope this all works. Oh and I think the source for the problems was some demo software I downloaded of the net. It came up as a beta demo and was scanned by both an onliner at PC Tools and AND avg, neither picked up a virus or trojan etc. But I dont blame the Antivirus software as even after the download was unpackaged out of it compressed .rar state the single .exe came through clean as a whistle. I was amazed when the explorer suddenly popped up taking me to casino advert after casino advert. I'm just glad its over and rid of.
Anyway....its early and I have to do some work. So bye for now. xx
Its safe to say I'm safely protected now....I hope.AVG anti virus which I swapped over to last year having been a long time user of Panda Anti virus (until I got no replies back from their customer help dept OR various other comms over a major problem I was having)
AVG is a good anti virus software as I didn't want to have to use one that had a build in firewall, preferring to use another source for this.
Anyway....I just hope this all works. Oh and I think the source for the problems was some demo software I downloaded of the net. It came up as a beta demo and was scanned by both an onliner at PC Tools and AND avg, neither picked up a virus or trojan etc. But I dont blame the Antivirus software as even after the download was unpackaged out of it compressed .rar state the single .exe came through clean as a whistle. I was amazed when the explorer suddenly popped up taking me to casino advert after casino advert. I'm just glad its over and rid of.
Anyway....its early and I have to do some work. So bye for now. xx
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