Life

My spirit began to shake and stayed shivering for quite some time....

Perhaps like a feather in the wind...Perhaps not

My soul was feeling lost in a plastic world for some time. A plastic world I'm told most don't even bother to acknowledge or even realize they exist in...or perhaps if the truth were known 'Don't want to think about'
Reminiscent of a Matrix trilogy but without the spider robots? LOL

I guess its certainly not a prerequisite to exist in the plastic world that's for sure. No one person is forced to. NO! We can all live as we want. But there ARE rules. But no one person ever said to us to become plastic..........."we just do!"
The plastic life is a life that is nothing more than a man made matrix. A world full of daily routines which each of us follow like the three wise men following the star of David. Except...except unlike them we are on no real religious mission, and we are on no mercy dash to glance upon a tiny child in a manger. No, we are just here and thats all there is to it. We get up, get washed and dressed, leave for work, get to work and work the day out. Drive or walk home, sit down to eat, switch on the tv...watch a soap, listen to music (listening to music is better) get changed, go to bed...and become a slave to the metaphorical alarm clock that is life 'all over again'
I am writing this as a note to myself for future reference for when my mind wanders to the clouds in a dreamlike way and ponders who God actually is and what everyone (not just me) is destined to do.
You see, I have reached the age of thought change, when I guess from what others have said allow deeper thoughts to become clearer. Allowing us to become more individual, to be more in tune with our inner selves.
The thoughts I have are not awful or magical or anything really crazy. No, my thoughts these days are simple towards one area.... You know what I mean, "are our lives predestined to the point that we have no direct control over what each day will bring, is it just a matter of God giving us a few various daily choices in the hope we won't feel we are playing a reality game and are forced to do what we do"
I believe that when we are born there are only psychological shackles that bind us to a specific predestined future or route through life. The only thing I do whole heartedly believe where birth and life connect is that we are only predsstined through the preprogramming of the handed down genes that our given to us via our parents and their parents. Indeed it IS like a tree. SO when we say 'family tree' it is more real than a metaphor or set of words.

Genetically when we look around we are in deed alike. On the surface anyway. But deeper....much deeper we certainly aren't.
As a person I know that I would help even an enemy if they were in trouble. I know I believe in God, I know I am an extremely good parent....I know I love life...I know and feel the faith in my soul that tells me that with the strength and focus I can do anything I want and go anywhere I want. I know I have a destiny mapped out at least it feels that way. I want to become a writer and work to help other learn by my writings. I want to do good on this earth and be a good human being. I want to raise my child to be as good as she can in what she chooses to do. I want to raise her with the same understanding and tolerance that I was taught... I want her to grow up and be as good a person as I feel I am.

I have no idea where all this has come from..but it's just a blog that no one really reads and it's just my thoughts.

Make of it what you will.